Note To Self

Posted by on Dec 23, 2010 in Teach, Writing

I’ve been doing reverb10 on 750 words everyday, but with Media Free Week and some other things shaking down over here, I’ve not been able to post them all. I’ll do a greatest hits later this week, but Tuesday’s prompt was so awesome I just had to share it.

December 21 – Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?) (Author: Jenny Blake)

My note to future self was really inspiring, but I’m actually more interested in my note to past self. Writing that note was a surprisingly healing experience. I feel like a little wound deep down, that I didn’t even know was there, just got sealed up.

Dear Gin 2000,

Wow. You are just beginning an amazing decade. I know it is hard to believe that it will all happen the way you want it to, but, surprisingly, it will. Or most of it, anyway.

You will transform Baltimore with your actions, in a small but meaningful way. You will renew old friendships and lose some current ones that matter. And you will discover you want something very badly, but it will elude you.

I’d like to tell you to relax a bit. Take more naps. Exercise more, and quit drinking caffeine (you will, but not soon enough – do it now, if you can).   Try to enjoy the little moments. Appreciate your students, they are going to be a big part of your life.

Try to let people help you more – let them into your struggles and confusion, and you’ll find that things seem much clearer. Let go of perfection, try to do this by 2001 – you might actually accomplish it by 2005.

Oh, and when that house goes on the market? Buy it. You’ll be glad you did. The one on your old street, NOT the one with the creepy basement.

When things start to get rough with some old friends, talk about it right away. Don’t let it fester and become an impenetrable wall. On the other hand, some people are going to let you down, and it’s important to realize you probably couldn’t do anything about it.

Lastly, and most importantly, you BELONG here. What you are doing is absolutely the right thing. Be aware, be respectful, be generous, but most of all be here now. No matter how hard it gets, no matter what other people say, you are on the right track.

Love,

Gin 2010

Please, write yourself a letter to your own future self or past self now. It will be great, I promise.

1 Comment

  1. Heather
    December 23, 2010

    Lovely and heartfelt and true. We struggle so much of the time when we really KNOW what to do and when a lot of the time!